Dear Jr Year,

i dont quite know how i feel about you.  our relationship has gone up high, but has sometimes dropped a bit low.  there have been times where you have made me think twice about myself, and there are times when you have brought a lot of stress and worry. you have not always made me feel good about who i am. you have not been my favorite and you have definately not been perfect.  but there are no hard feelings, because  i have made many great memories, had a lot of laughs, and met some amazing people because of you. and without you, i would have missed out on a lot of important experiences that have make me a better person. 
but i have to let you know,i am letting you go.  its time for a change,  its time for me to move on, and i am not looking back.  i am looking forward to the future.  i am looking toward whats to come, and i cant wait for the new and exciting adventures that i will experience. i want to thankyou for what you have done, the more i think about it, the more i realize that you have truly made me a stronger person, but i am not sorry to see you go.  its time to seperate, its time to say goodbye.

who needs school when you can have something better.

okay since school is almost over,  and most of my classes are pointless, i decided that i just dont want to be there anymore.   i am either watching movies or just sitting there in every period. so i skipped third period.  thankfully my lovely mother ,who is just so nice, excused me.   me and my lovely friend left school and had lunch.  now for lunch we went to what i believe is possibly the closest thing  to heaven ,Zupas.  if you have not been to Zupas you dont get out enough and you are totally missing out.  they serve soups salads and sandwhiches, which are absolutely amazing. if i go too long without eating there, i honestly go through withdrawls.  i am boring and always get the same thing, but why change it if its not broken right.  after lunch we had time so we went accross the street to target.  i bought an amazingly cute bag that i have to thank cammie for because if you hadnt of said anything ,i probably wouldnt have bought it.  it is just what i have been looking for forever, and it just made my day happier.  i was feeling so good and so satisfyed. Then i had to go back to school,

 and my day got significantly worse.

Is it really May?

after this friday, there is really no school.  we are free from the stupid teachers who dont seem to understand and who dont want to cooperate.  we are free from test and assignments.  we are done with the crazy hallways and the gossip and drama that comes with high school.  we are free from this torture for three whole months, three months to forget about worries and to live our lives. 
usually around this time, it is warm and sunny and we are on the edge of our seats to be outside. but mother nature just doesnt want to be on our side this year.  the rain has been going on it seems forever, and as much as i want summer to be here, it doesnt feel like it is coming.  i feels like we should still have a couple months of school left.  i want school to be done, but it seems wierd that is almost is.  i get confusded on what part of the year we are really in.  but the more i think about it i think that the rain isnt all that bad.  it shouldnt be happening at this time of the year, but to me, i am okay with it.  i love how it smells. i love how makes everything clean, kind of a fresh start. 
sometimes i like to just sit outside and watch it rain.  its even okay to stand in it and get wet.  i makes me feel good and happy, its very refreshing
 so school go away, summer come please.  and rain, your okay where you are, just dont stay for too much longer, because i like the sun too.

think of the possibilities all because a mailman did his job

today something absolutely amazing came in the mail.
my passport!!
i was so excited for it to come i really dont know why but it was one of the things  i wanted for a long time

i think i just love that i could take this and travel the world all i wanted.  and one day i will.  one day i will experience the world, and do things that i cannot even dream of, and it all starts with this one book.   i can leave Pleasant Grove Utah for a little bit, i can forget all the problems and frustrations and learn to love the world around me.  i will have so many adventures with my friends and family and whoever wants to come with me,  with just a few pieces of paper.

and with my passport, i will make memories that will never be forgotton.

Happy Mothers Day!

right now, i am feeling so good.  i had to give a talk in church today, and i have to say, i think i rocked it.  i feel really good about it.  i was just so nervous, and i didnt feel like my talk was good enough, until i changed it like fifteen minutes before church.  people said i did a good job, even though i dont know if they really think that, or they are just saying it to be nice.  i will just pretend that they are for real.

also it mothers day! I just thought that i would say that i pretty much have the best mom, and i love her so much.  she is such a good support, and she is always there, shes amazing,

thats all there is too it.

oh and here's the story that i said in my talk today, i thought it was so cute and its great for mothers day.  it was given in a talk by Bradley D Foster in the 2010 General Conference

My good friend Don Pearson shared an experience with me. One night his four-year-old son, Eric, asked him to read a bedtime story. Eric had picked out his favorite book: The Ballooning Adventures of Paddy Pork, a story about a family who lived on the isles of the sea and traveled from island to island by hot-air balloon. It was a picture book that had no words, so Brother Pearson made up words to the story.

“Paddy is in a hot-air balloon. He is landing on an island now. He is dropping a line over the side of the balloon.”

Eric stopped him. “Dad that is not a line, It’s a rope.”

Brother Pearson looked at Eric and back at the picture book, and then he continued: “Paddy is getting out of the balloon and climbing down the tree. Oh no! His coat is caught on a limb!”

Again Eric stopped him. “Dad, that’s not a coat. It’s a jacket.”

By now Brother Pearson was somewhat perplexed. He said, “Eric, there are no words in this book, just pictures. Why do you insist that it’s a jacket?”

Eric answered, “Because Mother told me.”

His father closed the book and said, “Eric, who do you think is the last word, the ultimate authority in this house?”

This time Eric thought carefully before he answered, “You are, Dad.”

Brother Pearson beamed at his son. What an exceptional answer! “How did you know that?”

Eric quickly responded, “Mother told me.”

We're Waiting on the World to Change

my lives seems stressful lately.  and i dont know if it really is, or if i am letting myself think too much. there are a lot of things going on and some of them arent going my way.  i wish that things would change, the way i want them to for once.  but i wish i didnt have to do anything.  some people think that they dont have to work for what they want, and they seem to be waiting on the world to do it for them.  and sometimes i feel like one of these people.  but i have come to realize that for my dreams to come true, i have to make them come true. i cant sit back and watch, and then expect the results i want.  if i want a to do good on a test, i have to study. if their is a problem needs fixing, i have to fix it. 

at the conclusion of this year i feel like i am in a funk.  i dont want to try, and sometimes when i am in a bad mood, i dont even try to be in a good one.   i think that my life needs a change, i dont know what but something should be different, for a while i have just been waiting on the world to change, but i think to get  some of the results i want, i will just have to help it out.

Farewell my friends

i am so stupid, my only AP test this year is on Friday, and i havent even studied.  i have been thinking about studying for so long.  i kept putting it off, and it snuck on me so freakin fast.  it seriously is going to be the death of me, i might as well say goodbye to you all now.