ya they're kinda old, but i can look past that

Today i saw Mission Impossible 4

nuff said

Tomorrow i see Sherlock Holmes numbero dos

nuff said

My heart belongs to him this holiday season

honestly, the voice is the reason i love him, it makes my heart melt.

so if you feel as if you want to give me a present this chrstimas

consider this CD

if you look at me you might just see a smile

after a couple months
seven sections, including two essays
and 35 dollars
the beastly BYU application is complete.
next step is getting accepted
cross your fingers and toes and wish me good luck!

Lesson #1

when you sacrifice a little to help alot,
it makes you feel pretty good

Lesson #1.5
eating cookies dont make you feel so bad either

maybe its pathetic

 i feel as if
nothing can cheer me up today

im cursed

so yesterday some lady hit my car as i was trying to go to work.

it looks a little worse in person, but its not too bad.

but just a heads up, i kinda hate it when people wreck my car.

this weekend

tissues,
chapstick,
meds,
sleep,
and chicken noodle soup
have been my best friends

sometimes i make apple pies just because i want to

PS Happy 20th Amanda!

lets be honest

1. often when i say things they come out wrong and sound really sassy, i promise i dont mean them

2.  i absolutely hate potatoes baked or mash, but i love french fries

3.  dont tell anyone but i secretly love khaki pants and if you own a pair your probably cooler than me

4.  i have two sercret talents, peeing really fast and taking really good bad pictures

5. i love cooking/baking and sewing and i wish i was better at it.

6.  apparently i am an awful singer, but i pretend i am good at it anyways

7.  my outfit of choice is jeans or running shorts, tee shirt or sweat shirt, with a sports bra ( preferably neon).  If i could wear that everyday i totally would

your tagged: Julie, Janna, Brooklyn,

yesterday i lost my keys
so i used my moms today
and then i lost those
dont worry i found my keys, but not my moms
also i lose my phone about five time a day
i have a problem

what can you do

Instead of going to homecoming ( ya i didnt get asked, oh well)
i took a trip to Zupas and got this

 and watched Pride and Prejudice and saw him.

its a nice alternative if you ask me.

its a new day, its a new life, im feeling good

after doing my daily hour or so of blog stalking and after reading blogs that make me think, and that ispire me, i take a look at my own blog. and well that truth is, i am not so happy with it.  thinking back, i cant recall even once where i have written a post truly for myself. 
when i sit down at the computer and sign into blogger, i find myselft repeating these steps:  1. i read the latest post of blogs that i love, the ones that ispire me, make me think and make me smile 2.  i start comparing their wonderfulness to my blog   3.  instead of writing about my experiences or about what i feel, i think so hard about how i can make my blog like the others.  4.  i write a crap blog post.
so since i have realized this i will first apologize to any of you that have waisted your time reading
and next, start fresh.
i want to not erase my whole blog, but from now on , i want to write a new and improved blog.  i want to forget the past posts and focus on writing the experiences that made me grow, the ones that made me love life, or the ones that make me laugh.   i am not saying that my blog is going to be deep or poetic, probably not even a little.  but i what i am saying is that everything i post will be coming from me.   

sorry its been so long.  i havent known what to write for a long time, and frankly i havent had any desire.  but dont you worry, because post coming soon!

im much appreciative

thank you snooze button for allowing me to push you over and over again
thank you mom, for making yummy food everyday
thank you club carnival for getting me out of class early
thank you pleasant grove promanade for selling cheap jeweryly and $25 dollar TOMS
thank you brain for understanding math
thank you september for bringing back all the shows i love
thank you Jan Hawke, for kicking my butt into shape, i might hate you in the moment, but i am sure i will thank you a billion times in the end
thank you midway for hosting that one event every year that brings me joy
thank you seminary for helping realize my mistakes but giving me the opprotunity to fix them
thank you blog authors for writing amazing blogs that i  read religiously
and finally thank you otter pops for being 25 calories of pure happiness.

So yesterday we got trapped in the middle of Utah lake on a boat
Of course we prayed that someone would find us
And the lord Sent us a boat full of very attractive men with nice abbs
Hallelujah!

its wierd because it feels normal

so today was the very first day of school of my senior year and
i still dont want to believe it.
and when i got there it seemed like i never left,
which i hate.
but i think i will just have to accept the fact that i have to go,
so i might as well make the best of it right?
i decided that i want to make this year count
i want to cherish all  good moments and forget the bad ones.
i want to do what i want and never let anyone persuade me to do otherwise.
this year will be a good one.

oh ya and today i decided i am running a half marathon, and i start training today! so i guess im off to run three miles Yay?!

it will probably get brighter

 i got this at my new ACT prep class.

Why did i take this class again?

but now worries because when i got home this was in my front yard

and i bought this

and then my tongue turned green

it doesnt take much to make this girl happy

Lesson of the Day

No good sitting worrying about it, whats coming will come, and we'll meet it when it does.

-Hagrid, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

beauty can be found if you just open your eys



here we go

not so different from home after all

biking through the jungle

 its nothing without some sun damage

you can tell two years of spanish has done me well

got to love mariachi bands

relaxation

adventure

mi familia

amazing

ya we climbed that

but it was totally worth it

we all know im that strong

mexico was absolutely amazing, and i was so happy i was able to go.  it was weird being so far away from home and being in a place that i am not used to.  But this was such a good thing for me to expericence a different part of the world and to experience a whole different cultutre. i love it and will never forget my adventure

i totally and completly understand....

why everyone is so obessesed

i only had to leave the country to figure it out

Adios

see ya pleasant grove,

utah,

and even the united states

because

tomorrow i will be

here

peace

ya i get it
i have heard it a thousand times
everyone knows
i know
i get thats its a joke
but its gone too far
im not laughing anymore

i went here today

and i really liked it

i have never went with just my family alone, it was very good

there are parts of my life that need some fixing

 and i am thinking that if i visit this beautiful place more often, it will make my life much better.

i love to see the temple, and  i will try my very hardest to go there once a week.

i touched your butt. I know, i felt it.

I recently got back from my sixth girls camp.  i had very low expectionations, but at the the end of the week, i was pleasantly surprised.  the week was filled with so many different things, but to keep it short,  this is how i would sum it up.

new friendships
spiritual feelings
laughs
frustrations
confusion
understanding
multiple pairs of pants
dirt
crazy hair and horrible smell
singing
singing
and more singing
hard work
lack of sleep
lots of tears
new and old found love
stronger believing
a better sense of belonging
an increase on the path to becoming

P.S.  i miss you all, where have you  been
12 days till

today mi padre bought a brand new car
you know what that means?
the car, the car that i absoulely love, is not his anymore
it means that i  can finally open that one car freshener that i have been waiting till this very day to open
it means that i can clean it inside and out and start fresh.
i can drive this car whenever i want without addressing anyone
this very car, the one that i love, will always be there when i need it.
but what really brings me the most joy, is that after all this time....

i can finally, officially call it mine.

Love This!

cutest engagement pictures ever.

one thing leads to another

i took the ACT for the third time today

i have a feeling i did horrible again.

i think it is time to accept the fact that i wont get into college
then i wont have a carreer and will make no money

i am going to have to find a box located under a bridge to call home

my life will be worthless

then i will meet a man

he will rescue me

he will be rich

and we will be in love

the end

ps i love the 11th of the month

oh i believe in yesterday

 i got this fish

 his name is smoochy,

guess why

hes kinda ugly

but i still like him

Dear Jr Year,

i dont quite know how i feel about you.  our relationship has gone up high, but has sometimes dropped a bit low.  there have been times where you have made me think twice about myself, and there are times when you have brought a lot of stress and worry. you have not always made me feel good about who i am. you have not been my favorite and you have definately not been perfect.  but there are no hard feelings, because  i have made many great memories, had a lot of laughs, and met some amazing people because of you. and without you, i would have missed out on a lot of important experiences that have make me a better person. 
but i have to let you know,i am letting you go.  its time for a change,  its time for me to move on, and i am not looking back.  i am looking forward to the future.  i am looking toward whats to come, and i cant wait for the new and exciting adventures that i will experience. i want to thankyou for what you have done, the more i think about it, the more i realize that you have truly made me a stronger person, but i am not sorry to see you go.  its time to seperate, its time to say goodbye.

who needs school when you can have something better.

okay since school is almost over,  and most of my classes are pointless, i decided that i just dont want to be there anymore.   i am either watching movies or just sitting there in every period. so i skipped third period.  thankfully my lovely mother ,who is just so nice, excused me.   me and my lovely friend left school and had lunch.  now for lunch we went to what i believe is possibly the closest thing  to heaven ,Zupas.  if you have not been to Zupas you dont get out enough and you are totally missing out.  they serve soups salads and sandwhiches, which are absolutely amazing. if i go too long without eating there, i honestly go through withdrawls.  i am boring and always get the same thing, but why change it if its not broken right.  after lunch we had time so we went accross the street to target.  i bought an amazingly cute bag that i have to thank cammie for because if you hadnt of said anything ,i probably wouldnt have bought it.  it is just what i have been looking for forever, and it just made my day happier.  i was feeling so good and so satisfyed. Then i had to go back to school,

 and my day got significantly worse.

Is it really May?

after this friday, there is really no school.  we are free from the stupid teachers who dont seem to understand and who dont want to cooperate.  we are free from test and assignments.  we are done with the crazy hallways and the gossip and drama that comes with high school.  we are free from this torture for three whole months, three months to forget about worries and to live our lives. 
usually around this time, it is warm and sunny and we are on the edge of our seats to be outside. but mother nature just doesnt want to be on our side this year.  the rain has been going on it seems forever, and as much as i want summer to be here, it doesnt feel like it is coming.  i feels like we should still have a couple months of school left.  i want school to be done, but it seems wierd that is almost is.  i get confusded on what part of the year we are really in.  but the more i think about it i think that the rain isnt all that bad.  it shouldnt be happening at this time of the year, but to me, i am okay with it.  i love how it smells. i love how makes everything clean, kind of a fresh start. 
sometimes i like to just sit outside and watch it rain.  its even okay to stand in it and get wet.  i makes me feel good and happy, its very refreshing
 so school go away, summer come please.  and rain, your okay where you are, just dont stay for too much longer, because i like the sun too.

think of the possibilities all because a mailman did his job

today something absolutely amazing came in the mail.
my passport!!
i was so excited for it to come i really dont know why but it was one of the things  i wanted for a long time

i think i just love that i could take this and travel the world all i wanted.  and one day i will.  one day i will experience the world, and do things that i cannot even dream of, and it all starts with this one book.   i can leave Pleasant Grove Utah for a little bit, i can forget all the problems and frustrations and learn to love the world around me.  i will have so many adventures with my friends and family and whoever wants to come with me,  with just a few pieces of paper.

and with my passport, i will make memories that will never be forgotton.

Happy Mothers Day!

right now, i am feeling so good.  i had to give a talk in church today, and i have to say, i think i rocked it.  i feel really good about it.  i was just so nervous, and i didnt feel like my talk was good enough, until i changed it like fifteen minutes before church.  people said i did a good job, even though i dont know if they really think that, or they are just saying it to be nice.  i will just pretend that they are for real.

also it mothers day! I just thought that i would say that i pretty much have the best mom, and i love her so much.  she is such a good support, and she is always there, shes amazing,

thats all there is too it.

oh and here's the story that i said in my talk today, i thought it was so cute and its great for mothers day.  it was given in a talk by Bradley D Foster in the 2010 General Conference

My good friend Don Pearson shared an experience with me. One night his four-year-old son, Eric, asked him to read a bedtime story. Eric had picked out his favorite book: The Ballooning Adventures of Paddy Pork, a story about a family who lived on the isles of the sea and traveled from island to island by hot-air balloon. It was a picture book that had no words, so Brother Pearson made up words to the story.

“Paddy is in a hot-air balloon. He is landing on an island now. He is dropping a line over the side of the balloon.”

Eric stopped him. “Dad that is not a line, It’s a rope.”

Brother Pearson looked at Eric and back at the picture book, and then he continued: “Paddy is getting out of the balloon and climbing down the tree. Oh no! His coat is caught on a limb!”

Again Eric stopped him. “Dad, that’s not a coat. It’s a jacket.”

By now Brother Pearson was somewhat perplexed. He said, “Eric, there are no words in this book, just pictures. Why do you insist that it’s a jacket?”

Eric answered, “Because Mother told me.”

His father closed the book and said, “Eric, who do you think is the last word, the ultimate authority in this house?”

This time Eric thought carefully before he answered, “You are, Dad.”

Brother Pearson beamed at his son. What an exceptional answer! “How did you know that?”

Eric quickly responded, “Mother told me.”

We're Waiting on the World to Change

my lives seems stressful lately.  and i dont know if it really is, or if i am letting myself think too much. there are a lot of things going on and some of them arent going my way.  i wish that things would change, the way i want them to for once.  but i wish i didnt have to do anything.  some people think that they dont have to work for what they want, and they seem to be waiting on the world to do it for them.  and sometimes i feel like one of these people.  but i have come to realize that for my dreams to come true, i have to make them come true. i cant sit back and watch, and then expect the results i want.  if i want a to do good on a test, i have to study. if their is a problem needs fixing, i have to fix it. 

at the conclusion of this year i feel like i am in a funk.  i dont want to try, and sometimes when i am in a bad mood, i dont even try to be in a good one.   i think that my life needs a change, i dont know what but something should be different, for a while i have just been waiting on the world to change, but i think to get  some of the results i want, i will just have to help it out.

Farewell my friends

i am so stupid, my only AP test this year is on Friday, and i havent even studied.  i have been thinking about studying for so long.  i kept putting it off, and it snuck on me so freakin fast.  it seriously is going to be the death of me, i might as well say goodbye to you all now.

i hate it when i have nothing to write about.  i want to write, i love it.  but i am stuck.
i got nothing

just some thoughts

i just wonder if am i ready? i dont think i am. i have time to enjoy life, why dont i?  my life is going to change soon, but not now, so why do i have to worry about?  i know why,  because that is all everyone talks about.  or is it just me?  why cant i just love life now. why cant i love myself, my family, my friends?  why cant i love the jokes, the moments, the awkward people, friendship, and haircuts?   why cant i love all of that only, and not ever stress about anythings, come on just relax

sometimes i kinda feel stupid, the proof is right in front of me.  but does it really measure my stupidiness? but no i know i am not stupid, but why do they make me feel like it.  why does that one little number make me feel like that.  its just a number right?  Wrong, it basically descided my whole life.

it frustrating.  why am i here, there is a better way of spening my time.  i kinda hate it, but it not so bad.  the only thing that is really getting me through this is money.  as least i am getting payed. plus my dad needs my help, i love him.  i can do it. i shouldnt act like that.  i will be happy about it.  it will make it better, i will have a better time.  i can smile.

hahah they make me laugh.  they are so weird together, but that is okay it makes me smile.  they like each other and they have fun.  i couldnt do it, but they are happy and i am happy.  it totally gives me entertainment, is that bad that i laugh.  i hope not.

so lesson of the day. it okay to worry, its okay to do your best.  but dont stress too much , be happy and smile and laugh everyday, its good for you and everyone around you.

Do i have to grow up?

i am at a weird point in my life. i am not yet an adult, but i am not a child anymore either, i am just in the middle. And sometimes i get confused who i really want to be. but after spending a day going to the bank, getting gas, and going grocery shopping with the cart. then, getting messy by using sidewalk chalk with little kids and decorating cupcakes, its not hard to make a decision.